The Mechanics Of The Soul

7th February 2023 - Breaking The News

The day I had to tell my children that their father was dead was one of the worst days of my life.

I received a phone call in the morning to tell me that Dan had been found hanging in his boat by his co-workers when they went to The Kraken after he failed to come to work for two days.

My two younger children, Ivy and Taiga were at school, and Holly, my eldest was at home that day.

I knew immediately that I wanted to tell them all together, so I didn’t tell Holly when I found out in the morning.  I sent her off to the market on some shopping errands while I made a couple of phone calls to close friends about Dan’s death.

The morning seemed to pass in slow motion, and when Holly returned from the market, full of the joys of a carefree child, I knew that the news that I was holding inside would change that carefree innocence forever.  Acting like everything was ok, whilst holding this tragic information was also one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.  I am not good at wearing masks and holding back on truth.  But I knew that my children would remember this day for as long as they lived, and I wanted to do it right.  If there is such a things as the right way to tell your children that their father is dead.

We had another few hours until we needed to pick the other two up from school, so Holly and I walked the beautiful Finca Road which runs alongside Lake Atitlan, from San Pedro volcano, where our house is, to San Pedro town, which is located just off to the side of the awesome towering volcano.

We stopped for cake at Cafe Orbe, half way along.  This was where we had all last seen Dan alive, on his last night in Guatemala three weeks before.  We had shared a Last Supper together, our last meal as a family.  And when the time came for him to leave, Holly clung to him and cried, refusing to let go, as if she would never see him again.  

Holly has The Knowing.  I have never seen her like that.  Her Soul knew that she would indeed never see him again.

And so I took her for a piece of the best cake in town, to bring her one last taste of sweetness, before the bitter, bitter truth was told.

We then picked Ivy and Taiga up from school. When we returned back to our house, our beautiful house at the bottom of San Pedro Volcano, overlooking the stunning Lake Atitlan, I opened the gate and asked the children to stop and wait.

I asked them to look at the view, and to tell me what they could see that they loved.

They didn’t hesitate to reply …

“The Lake!”, “Our Chickens!”, “Our House, Casa Castillo!”, “The Mountains!”, “Our Garden!”, “Bobby !! Our Dog !!”

“Everything that you can see has the power to heal you from anything.”  I told them.

“Mother Nature holds the power to heal the deepest wounds, my loves.  Never Forget that.”

“Mummy, I feel like you’re leading up to something”, piped up the ever-perceptive Ivy.

“Yes, I am.  Come into the house and come upstairs with me”  I replied.

“Now I really feel like you’re leading up to something” she retorted as they followed me into the house.

The beautiful octagonal tower room in our house, the only upstairs room, is my healing space and office.  I sat them all down and handed them each a shungite crystal in an attempt to soften the impact of the devastating news that I was about to tell them.

“What is it Mummy?” They asked me 

“You know that I have been telling you for the last six weeks that we may get a phone call soon to tell us that one of our loved ones has died?…. Well, this morning I received that phone call” I said.  

They all looked at me wide eyed in shocked expectation.

“So has Ouma died?”  Asked Holly immediately.

“No”, I replied.  “Daddy is dead”.

All three of them looked at me and each other for a moment, in disbelief.  But as they saw the tears start pouring down my face, they let out the most primal wails I have ever heard.  

High pitched, gut-wrenching, heart-breaking wails of deep, deep anguish.  

I have never heard a sound like it, and I hope never to hear it again.  This cacophony of Soul Pain went on for about 5 minutes, but it seemed like forever.

Eventually, as the initial impact gave way to curiosity, Ivy asked me “How ? What happened ?”

I knew the there was no point in beating around the bush.  They would have to find out sooner or later, and I don’t believe in lying to my children, even about situations as serious as this.

“He killed himself”. I replied.

“What ?”,  they all looked at me in disbelief.  “How ?”

“He hanged himself with a rope in The Kraken”. 

Another round of wailing ensued, and we all held each other and cried for a long time.

An hour or so later, I received a call from Dan’s sister, Emily.  

She and I had always been close, but since Dan and I separated, we had drifted apart somewhat, losing regular contact with one another.

That afternoon, we spent about three hours talking on the phone, supporting each other through the shock and disbelief of what had happened, and a strong and beautiful re-connection was kindled through our shared experience of the devastating loss of Dan from our lives.

Later that evening, Holly said to me “Mummy, I’ve got a headache”

“Grief brings up all sorts of strange responses in your body and your emotions, Holly.  You’ve had a huge shock.  It’s late, lets go to bed.  A good night’s sleep will probably clear it.”

Conversations With The Spirits

In Guatemala, the Mayan people have a tradition of supporting and holding a grieving family for 9 days after the death of their loved one.  Our amazing San Pedro community of ex-pats and locals jumped straight into this Mayan tradition, and we were visited by friends  and neighbours, and brought food every day for 2 weeks straight, as we dealt with the massive shock of Dan’s death.  Other friends offered to take the kids for playdates or outings, to give them some away-time and distraction from the reality check that had hit us all like a freight train.

The day after we found out about Dan, Ivy and Taiga chose to take up the offer to go on a beach outing with some friends.  Holly chose to stay at home.  She wasn’t ready to face the world just yet.  And neither was I.

“Mummy.  I’ve still got the headache.  It hasn’t gone away”.

I had a sneaking suspicion of what might be causing it, or to be more accurate, who might be causing it.

“Shall we go upstairs and see if we can sort it out then?”  I asked.

“Yes please.”  She replied.

It is worth mentioning at this point that all my children have psychic skills.  They can all hear Spirits talking to them, and from very young ages, I have been open to exploring these skills with them.  

Because I spend much of my personal and professional life conversing with Spirits of various kinds, it is no surprise to me that my children also have The Gift, and Holly is particularly strong with it.

When she was 4 years old, she first started telling me about The Misty Greyness, which was a voice that would encourage her to be mean to her little sister and hurt her.  

After a few years of trying to work out who or what the Misty Greyness was, I undertook Shamanic De-Possession Training, and we finally figured out that it was an angry and lonely Storm Elemental.  We did the work to remove it and sent it back to The Storm, but a year or so later, it returned and started to cause problems again between Holly and Ivy.  We finally figured out that it was lonely and needed a friend, so we found another Storm Elemental for it to be friends with.  We sent them both back to The Storm and haven’t had any problems since.

For the record, let’s address this from the outset, I do not believe in the modern psychiatric diagnoses of schizophrenia or multiple personality disorder.

From both my Shamanic Training and my experience doing De-Possession work for many years now, I am pretty certain that those ‘voices in the head’ are actually Spirits of one kind or another who have taken up residence in the Human host’s energy field.  

I have long conversations with these Spirits when I do De-Possession work with my clients.  And it is actually my clients who channel the Spirits that are attached to them.  I do not.  I just ask the questions.  And if you know the right questions to ask, you can very quickly ascertain what kind of Spirit you are talking to;

These range from the Terrestrial Spirits of Mother Earth which would include the Spirits of deceased or living Humans, Spirits of Nature such as Animal or Plant Spirits, Spirits of the Land such as the Spirits of Lakes, Mountains, or Forests, Elemental Spirits of Earth, Air, Fire and Water, as well as Fairy Folk such as Trolls and Imps! 

It has been my experience that children have a strong connection with Nature Spirits and Fairy Folk of all kinds, and it is quite common for them to have such Spirits on-board.  It is also my experience that the Fairies can be really quite troublesome.  They have an innocent, child-like quality, which is why they are attracted to children in the first place, but they can also be mischievous and enjoy playing tricks, as all the old legends tell us.

The Imps

My son Taiga has been regularly possessed by naughty and mischievous Earth Elemental Spirits that I refer to as The Imps.  The symptoms of this type of Possession show up as a huge increase in naughty, disruptive and un-cooperative behaviour as well as a tendency to torment animals.  This Possession by The Imps caused a lot of problems within our family harmony for a good while, and got Taiga into a lot of trouble, until I finally figured out that it was a Spirit Possession issue.  

Because of Holly’s previous experience and skill in doing De-Possession work with me, as well as her exceptional talent at channelling the Spirits, I use her as a substitute for her brother, and she channels the Imps so that we can clear them.

Taiga has been Possessed, De-Possessed, Re-Possessed and subsequently De-Possessed at least six times now, so Holly and I are well versed in working together in this way to channel, communicate with and ultimately remove these naughty Spirits.  

I can also now see the huge difference in Taiga’s behaviour when he has ‘The Imps’, and when he doesn’t.  And even he can now tell when they’ve jumped into him again, and will come to me and whisper in my ear “Mummy, I think I’ve got The Imps again”.  Holly and I do the De-Possession work for him and then he is back to his ‘normal’ self again.  

The Imps are very trixy and hang out in groups, and with this form of Possession there are often multiple Imps present.  While some will agree to leave, very often the more mischievous ones absolutely refuse to go.  There is a lot of negotiation required. They are rude and cheeky, and during one particularly difficult De-Possession session, I was running out of tactics to persuade them to leave.  I started calling ALL of my Allies, as back-up and one of the Imps declared fearfully, “Please don’t call Ixchel!!”.  

Ixchel is a local Mayan Goddess that I have befriended as one of my local Helping Spirits.  So obviously I called her immediately!  It turned out that The Imps are terrified of Ixchel, and as soon as she arrived, the naughty and mischievous Imps were much more co-operative and compliant.  Like a naughty child when their mother arrives to collect them, the Imps sulkily left with Ixchel!

The indigenous Mayan people have a profound understanding of Land, Nature and Elemental Spirits, and so one time when I was called in to Taiga’s school due to a day of particularly unruly behaviour, I told his Mayan teachers about his regular Possession issues with The Imps.

They nodded and asked if they were Elemental Spirits.  I said yes, very naughty ones.

They asked me if I wanted to do a Mayan Ceremony to clear him.  They were pleasantly surprised when I replied that I could do it myself, and that this was the fifth time it had happened.  I said I would do the work that afternoon to clear him AGAIN, and I asked them to let me know how his behaviour was the following day.  I also asked them to tell me straight away if they noticed him being unreasonably naughty in the future, as this was a clear sign to me that The Imps were back!

Holly and I did the De-Possession work for Taiga that afternoon and we discovered from talking to The Imps through this process that they had been hanging out in the school’s garden, and jumping from child to child, like head lice, causing mischief!  

With Ixchel’s help, we cleared the school garden and called for protective sentry’s on the doors and boundaries of the school, so no more Imps could get in and cause havoc for the teachers.  I told the teachers about the work I’d done, and the following day they reported that he was indeed back to ‘normal’, and they thanked me for the work we had done to clear the school.

Can you imagine what kind of response I would have from teachers in a British school, if I told them that my child’s unruly behaviour was caused by being possessed by naughty fairies?!

And this is another reason why I feel like I have found my Spiritual Home, here in the Indigenous Mayan Heartlands of Guatemala!!  

The next time Taiga got re-Possessed by The Imps, I asked Ixchel to clear the whole town of Imps, and to take them all somewhere that they could be happy, but would not keep causing untold problems by jumping into my son and other children.  

We have not had any problems with The Imps since !!

Angels and Demons

As well as Earth-bound Terrestrial Spirits, there are also Extra-Terrestrial Spirits who are not of our Earth, such as Spirits from other physical places in The Universe, Elemental Spirits from other Planets, Inter-Dimensional Spirits such as Angels, but my favourites are the Cosmic Travellers who are like Universal Backpackers!!  They come to Earth like any other type of tourist, to see what it’s like, and to see what us Humans are all about.

In my work I get to have long conversations with all these various Spirits, with the aim of finding out why they are in my Human client, what they need, why they have come, and ultimately to convince them in a friendly compassionate way to leave, and to then re-patriate them to wherever they have come from, or wherever they need to go next.

I do also ask many questions out of pure curiosity, with a personal interest in understanding more about the conscious and sentient beings that we share our Universe with.

On the odd occasion I do come across what we might call Evil or Demonic Spirits, and even they are treated with Love and Compassion, because what I have discovered in my conversations with them is that mostly they are in their line of work under coercion or duress.  Many were originally Human, and have been tricked into Contracting with and handing their Souls over to Darkness, and are threatened with terrible punishments if they fail in their missions to carry out the Agenda of this Dark Force.  I thoroughly enjoy my role in convincing them to come over to the Side of The Light, and I have many tricks up my sleeve as well as convincing arguments to persuade them that this is their best option.  It is also worth pointing out that people who have Demonic Attachments are often deeply trapped in destructive and self-destructive behaviour patterns that feel impossible to escape from, which often result in violence to self or others.

In the Bigger Bigger Picture, I do believe we are in an Inter-Dimensional Spiritual War, that has intensified massively over the last few years. 

I also do not think it is any accident or coincidence that popular culture is now encouraging people to embrace Satanic and Demonic symbolism.  It is being normalised and pushed as a perfectly acceptable fashion statement, from selling trainers with upside down pentacles and human blood in their soles (souls ?), to horned entities in many Netflix children’s programs, and even Devils and Demons in many name brand children’s toys.  The music industry is absolutely saturated with red and black demonic symbolism, hell-inspired concerts and outfits, and I truly believe that the evil elite in this world are revealing their true god and agenda through this revealing and promotion of Satanic and Demonic worship.

All of these efforts are very cunning forms of trickery that are employed specifically to get Humans to unknowingly Contract their Souls over to the Dark Force, and to those Dark Entities who seek ultimate control and power over the Souls of Humanity.

In my conversations with Demons, I have discovered that they are very proud of their skills of trickery, and it seems to be a method that they take great pleasure in employing.  They would much rather get Humans to hand over their Power and Soul Force voluntarily through human traits of greed, ego and lust than use threats of force or punishment to scare them into submission.  Demons enjoy it when humans willingly walk into their traps through their own lack of morality or ethics, or even through a simple inability to maintain good behaviour patterns of self-love and self-care.

Short term gratification through the pleasures of the flesh are their routes into the human energy field, and once they have taken up residence, then they work on using their cunning and trickery to gain power over the Soul of their host.  They are the most malevolent form of Parasitic Entity, who have the ability and desire to influence the behaviour, thought processes and emotional states of their hosts by whispering the most damaging words or concepts into the hearts and minds of their Human victims.  Demons also seek to influence other Humans through gaining positions of power and influence within circles of close friends and family members.  

As I mentioned before, I consider Humanity to be in an age-old Spiritual War, but one which has escalated intensely in the last 3 years.  Demonic infiltration and espionage are absolutely one of the tactics of this War.  And I consider myself privileged to have had enough very revealing conversations with the foot soldiers of Darkness to know how they operate and what they seek to achieve.  Unfortunately for the Dark Side, their front line troops are not that bright, and they do like to boast about their achievements and how devilishly cunning they are!  They are also, however, mostly controlled through fear and a lack of Possession of their own Souls, and so promising to rescue their incarcerated Souls and liberate them to The Light where they will face no punishment for their failed mission is often enough to turn the loyalties of the Conscripted Dead.  Helping to jog their memories enough so that they remember who they were before they were Demons, and re-uniting them with their own Loving, Compassionate and Luminous Ancestors, also helps to bring them back to an awareness of another path of Soul Sovereignty and evolution, rather than being stuck in an endlessly repeating cycle of Spiritual Enslavement, based on Soul Theft, amnesia and brutality.

Liberating Demons to The Light is a very satisfying part of my work, and a fine contribution to The Cause.  It does, however, also make me a target for the Dark Side, as they seek to de-rail and disable me in any way possible.  I have many layers and Allies of Protection as this work obviously comes with risks.  My home is covered with a Protective matrix that is like Fort Knox, and my Protections also work to keep my home and children safe.  The Spirits of Lake Atitlan and the Super-Volcano that we live on are powerful protective Allies of mine too. 

But every so often, we discover that there is a weak link or vulnerability in this Armour of God.  Unfortunately for us, Dan was a huge chink in this armour of protection of our family.  And the love of a child for her Father was enough to breach the many layers of her Mother's protection.

I mention all of this as pre-emptive context, as this Tale is about to take a turn into the Spiritual Realms and Shamanic Themes of Soul Loss, Demonic Possession and Soul Transition…

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